Last nite got a big quarrel with mummy.. Then hubby called and quite stunned to hear me crying.. (i always cry whenever i quarrel with my mom)
He did trying to "an wei" me.. haiz.. But still feel kinda hurt by my mom words..
Sometimes thinking that why am i studying and doing so much for.. If not for thinking of giving them more allowance. .Would i go further study??
I guess to those that know me well. Should know that i wont opt to go study if i can.. I am quite content in my own pace.. (kinda easily content ppl)
But haiz.. To her she think that i am not caring for them. bla bla bla.. Sian sia..
Recently under alot of stress liao.. Yet she want to add some more to me..
Hubby still called me to check what coach bag i want.. He buy give me.. But totally no mood to discuss on that.. Thanks darling..
Tml will be gg to hubby house to stay over for 1 week plus.. For my exams period..
Now quite mixture of feeling.. So much things to do. Yet seem quite little of time.. 1 person need to be like 10 ppl to work..
Anyway i am now going through a bit of depressing stage.. Everything looks so dark in front of me.. When will i see lights??? Have they forgotten about me?? Sometimes i even wonder if i am the one not here anymore instead of my brother.. What will life be for them? Shouldn't be so sad as compare to now.. I think it will be more easy for them to pick up their lives and move on ba.. Though from their mouth that they only have me now.. But i doesn't feel that.. I still feel so little and least prior in their lives.. Argh..
So sickening.. feeling so damn sucky now.. How i wish i am the one that is gone.. Don need to face so much problems.. Do so much yet no one appreciate.. I think i am always taken granted for ba..
*Edit - Tks for concern.. Just want to vent out my sadness.. Don worry..
