PMS I am a bad tempered person. Just that sometimes i don't like to show it out. especially towards my friends.
Well in the past like in primary school timing, i could easily get blown up. My mood changing in nearly split seconds. I think faster than flipping one page. I used to torture myself with putting a lot of chillies on my bowl of noodles and ate it. (well i guess that is why now i can't take spicy stuff)
However when i went into secondary school, i discovered that i can no longer have such bad temper. As they ain't going to be liked my buddies (peiting, weiqiang etc) in primary school whom always give in to me. Therefore i slowly change myself. From one hot-tempered person to one who merely flare up at people.
The change in me was so great that even my PS friends also don't really believe it. (^.^)v Something that i am proud of.
Following by going in Poly. I guess my friends hardly see i flare up. Normally i am the one saying sorry even though i am not in wrong. Well i guess i have those "peace lovers" blood flowing inside. However i am not a push over too. I can be quite firm at times. Well more towards guys i guess. Von often say that i give in to girls more than guys.
Well to me girls are meant to be doted. Don't you all agree???
But i guess now, all my hard work of controlling my volcano isn't getting so good. Nowadays i tend to find hubby to quarrel. I always feel like i cannot control my mood swing. Well it kinda freak me out.
Haiz. Is it as we grow older, we tend to unable to control our temper?? or is it just me alone?
Now one moment i can feel very super angry, next moment i can feel super sad. Why of all no happiness in it. Maybe i got a lot of things i don't know how to express out. I feel pointless even saying it out. Nobody bothers. Everyone care for themselves. Be realistic. Who you think you are in this world. Answer is NOBODY. Merely just one person breathing in this world. Living and sharing and fighting spaces with another human being.
I guess you all must be thinking what the heck is she writing. lol. Seriously even myself also don't know what am i writing about. Just got the thoughts in my mind. I guess i going crazy soon.
PS: Well i having a bad mood swing now. Super sad mode. So don't bother about me. Just read and forget. Thanks.
